If Only...
Prologue
Its been three
years since the university graduation, Dego still remembered that at that time
his love was rejected by Janu, the girl he loves since the beginning they met
in university. Since then, Dego trying to move on from the past, however, in
reality, they are in the same company now that it makes their relation awkward.
The first
time I saw her
It was in
2011, Dego reassured himself that he aims to study at one of the leading
universities and majoring in accountants. He was so confident that graduated
with a pretty good grade from one of the famous high school in the town can
smooth his way to reach his dream. As he predicted, he was accepted into the
university as the big five students with a good grade, and it made him suddenly
famous among the new college student, the senior is no exception too. Until the
inauguration time came, Dego was in the seventh group with fifteen members
including him. His group was mentored by a calm and girly senior, she was Janu,
two semesters older. Dego fall in love, at first sight he saw Janu. As the
first day of the inauguration is over, once he arrived at home, he searched for
any Janu’s social media, from Instagram, Facebook, Twitter until Tinder, it's
kind of stalking rather than curious. Tired searching for Janu’s socmed, Dego
trying to contact his group friend one by one, whether one of them know what is
her socmed, yet no one knows. As Dego was so ambitious for his senior, it was
already spread among the student in the next day that Dego interested in Janu,
and as Dego feels that it makes no sense to feel ashamed, he finally asked
directly to Janu for her number at the end of the second-day inauguration.
Janu: “why you
are so possessed?”
Dego: “kind of
love at first sight, perhaps”
Janu: “I
already heard the story, your act is kind of stalker rather than a person who
fall in love”
Dego:
“ahaha…I’m sorry…”
Janu: “hope
that nobody gives that kind of view to you”
Janu left Dego
alone behind the accountant department building. Dego filled with question marks
inside his head about what was the meaning of her word.
The path
After three
months of Dego’s first semester, his relationship with Janu was so flat, not
like a couple or lover who falls in love with each other. However, Dego has
enough to already have Janu’s phone number, that it makes him contacting her or
keep updated with Janu’s story. On the other hand, Janu feels annoyed that
because her friends always curious about her relationship with Dego, as they
never walk out or date together. Janu can not bear with all the questions
headed to her as she thinks that it already made her insecure, so she called
Dego to pick her from the class and with no minute Dego already in the front
of Janu’s class. All eyes were on them as they walk down the stairs until at
the parking park. Janu then talk to Dego;
Janu: “so,
what do you want?”
Dego: “want
for what?”
Janu: “all
those stalking until I give you my number, and then we do nothing”
Dego: “you
wanted something?”
Janu: “if only
you know”
Dego: “know
what??”
Janu: “do as
you like from now on”
And again,
Janu left Dego alone there.
As time goes
by, there is a gap between their relation, as Janu's graduation was also nearer.
Dego himself has no clue what will he do to his relationship with Janu, and all
he can do is just focusing on his study as it was one of his dreams to study
there. One week later, Dego just realized that his number blocked by Janu. Dego
then tries to meet Janu in her class, but he can’t find her there until one of
Janu’s friend tell Dego that Janu is already finished with her thesis, and she
just need to do the final part, the graduation, which will be held one month
later.
A step to…
Janu’s
graduation has finally come. Dego came to the university hall to congratulate
Janu for her graduation. As the event over, Dego meet Janu behind the hall. He
congratulated her for her graduation and hoping her get a job she dreams of.
Janu then talked to Dego;
Janu: “I’m
sorry, it must be our last meet”
Dego: “no, I’m
the one who must say sorry in the past didn’t understand your feeling”
Janu: “no,
whatever happens, happens”
Dego: “I want
to ask you, want you to be my lover, for one more time”
Janu: “I’m
sorry, I can’t, that I will be not in this town anymore later”
Dego: “Oh...yeah,
I know that. Thanks for letting me express my feeling, perhaps for the last
time”
Janu: “I hope
we both can move on from this relationship, see you in another time”
Janu left Dego
for the last time, to meet her family call in the park. Dego then meets his
friend to congratulate the other seniors, and it seems that his face showing a
hollow emotion.
Two weeks
later, Dego got info from Janu’s friend, that she now works for a
multi-international company at the next town, but didn’t know what is the
company name. Dego just feels so calm, and he knows that the thing he did to
Janu was hurt her feeling and it was unacceptable.
One and a half
years passed, Dego finally graduated with a pretty good grade. Since the
rejection he got from Janu, he changed a lot, from his personality that be more
attentive to the circumstances and feelings of others. He also got recommended by
the rector to work for a big company, next to the town, but he prefers to be an
apprentice in advance for half a year.
As Dego
finished with his apprentice, he then took the recommendation from his rector
to work at the company, and finally, he hired there in a good position. Until
his eye catches an appearance that is not strange to him, he knows that she was
Janu. He is surprised and also excited, that he can meet Janu again, at the
same company, in unplanned circumstances. Dego then asked the security about
Janu's profile in the company, that she got a chief of marketing department
position, a little higher than Dego’s position now, and then he heads to the
administration, asked for Janu’s phone number. One week later, the director
held a meeting for company officials. Dego, who got a position as a sales
advisor, arrived first in the room to prepare the meeting material, until all
the officials come in and the person who was Dego most waiting for, Janu. Suddenly
as Janu entered the room, she is so shocked that Dego was there, preparing the
material she will hear later. Dego puts a smug face with a smile that can be
known through his eyes. At the meeting, Janu can’t focus on the material as she
still shocked by the reality that her “ex-lover” is at the same company as her,
the director often reprimanded Janu for daydreaming.
Denouement
As the meeting
over, all officials shake hands to each other. Janu waiting for her turn,
wanting to talk to Dego, how the hell he can work in the same company as her. Dego
knows that Janu wants to talk to him, so he also waiting until all officials
leave the room. As there are only two of them in the room, Janu grumbled to
Dego, wondering whether he still stalking her or not. Dego then explained
what did happen to him, on how he can work at the same company as her.
Dego: “so, I was
sponsored by the rector to this company, as you know, I’m still a smart person,
graduated with a good grade”
Janu: “why so
cocky”
Dego: “just
kidding haha”
Janu: “so, it seems like we got the same recommendation
from the campus”
Dego: “lucky isn’t
it?”
Janu: “(little
smiling) I hope so”
Dego: “so…any
other chances?”
Janu: “just
let all flow as the time pass by, I’m sure the time will come”
Dego become
awkward from her reaction, then Janu blushed and saying
Janu: “seems
like you have changed, a lot, maybe”
Dego: “I hope
so”
Janu: “if only
you show this kind of personality since we first met, maybe we become more
close than this”
Dego: “well,
why don’t we start now?”
At first, they
both feel awkward when they cross paths or there are just the two of them, confused
about how to start the conversation as it’s already three years since their
last meeting. Sometimes, they recalling the stupid things they did back then,
like selfish towards each other's feelings and don’t care about the
circumstances they faced. Both of them then become closer and closer, until all
the employees in the company know that they are a lover. Until when there is a situation that forced Dego to work outside the town for a year. Dego undertakes
the order, as he wants to strengthen his position in the company. Janu then make
a promise towards Dego;
Janu: “please,
contact me every time you can”
Dego: “sure,
if you do not block my number”
Janu: “geez”
Dego: “whatever
happens, happens. If only we can meet earlier”
Janu: “to meet
you again after those years is just the wonderful thing all I can get”
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